I need more grace than I thought

I have the ability to turn the purest of human intention into a travesty. I am jealous and self-centred and I have no right to be. I believe that my opinions and beliefs are better and more accurate than those of others, yet I constantly ignore what I profess and do the opposite of what I say I will. I am a liar. I care more about me than you. I am writing this as a self-centred attempt to make you all marvel at my humility, of which of I have none.

I apologize.