to the joyful, to the blue

Listening to: gs Megaphone- Reformation

On Tuesday-Thursday I did a study on Spiritual gifts based on 1 Corinthians 12-14. In doing this I realized a few things: the bible is really easy to misinterpret, a lot of believers do not use their spiritual gifts, and I do not read my bible enough. On Friday I read through Acts in one sitting as advised by Jerry. Then I went to work for my 11pm-7am midnight shift. So, at 3:30am, our baker phones us and informs us that she had been puking her guts out all night. So, having baking experience, I start her bake...and proceed to finish it as well. That's right, 11pm-12pm. 13 hours. 1 break. Cool part is, I got out of my shift today so I could go to church. Super Rockin.'

Today I had an argument with Sarah...like, a serious argument in which I very much upset her by saying something I should not have, which led to her crying and walking out of the room. We both realize that we've been consistently overstepping our boundaries, but we just haven't stopped.

I now realize that I have this problem, and it is that I want to date her the exact same amount that I want her to get to know Jesus. Exact same. And frankly, those two desires are totally irreconcilable with each other. Turns out Jerry was right 3 months ago when he told me I'd have to kill one of those desires, and I think you all know which one that is.

In church today Pastor Norm preached about apostasy, from 1 Timothy 4. He made it clear that the only way we can know what is false teaching is by knowing the truth, he asked us to consider personally how much time we'd spent this week studying the bible. He also mentioned how the first century Christians would sit down and read a whole book of the bible, and asked us the when the last time we did that was. I could have felt good knowing that I had done both of those things this week, but the thing is, I don't do it all the time, I was proud about it, and I knew my motivations for reading all that scripture earlier this week was just a thing I was doing to avoid thinking about Sarah, which is completely the wrong motivation. So with or without intending it, Pastor Norm convicted me of my need to read the bible, my hypocrisy and my ugly pride. And that is the spirtual gift of prophecy.

To the joyful to the blue
listen to me once
Let me tell you 'bout my personal
Renaissance.-
Ben Shreve of GS Megapone, "Personal Renaissance."

Thanks for reading. I'm learning to love you.