everything that rises must converge

God does not need me; I need God.
I live the only artform in which all people claim ownership.
Words do not exist in real time.

You'll still smile.

I hope I still love you.

Two Years

As of today, this blog is two years old. Crazy.

(thinking and wondering) what I'm gonna do

I am sitting in a clean house. I just cleaned it so that when mes parents come home they can sit around and do nothing. In the next few days this is what I'm gonna do:

1. Go to work.
2. Figure out which history class I'm going to take next year.
   
3. Register for all my classes tomorrow at 8:30 am because I have 16 credits (na-na!)
4. Have coffee with Miss Katherine Pammett.
5. Give Mr. Christopher Micheal Smith his hat back (that's not a typo btw)
6. Contact Mr. Jerry Bolton because I haven't talked to him in 3 weeks.
7. Do the same with Miss Meaghan Culkeen (for the same reason).
8. Listen to a lot of King's X. Most likely put the song "A Box" on repeat for 3 hours. Well, maybe not that long.
9. Maybe I should sleep too.

Right now I am going to go read my bible, and then go to bed at 1:00pm so I can sleep before working all night again. The joys of summer.

You know I miss you.

xviii

Dang. Haven't posted in a week. I hope I don't turn into one of those weekly posters. Then again, all of my friends are now biannual posters so they will most likely not even read this.

Yes, you.

Going to church is a good thing... Praying is a good thing. I had an interesting experience this week that I plan to write about, but I'll do it later because, as it stands, I've been awake for 18.5 hours and I have to be at work in exactly 7 hours and 54 minutes, so I should go to bed.

Bedification commencing.

Black like Sunday

The dog is on the loose...

I worked last night 11-7, and between 6-7 there was only two (2) of us working. TWO! Have you ever been to a Tim Horton's at 6:00am. It was hell. Well, probably not nearly as bad as hell would be, but still pretty bad.

Today is church... which reminds me, I have to buy a pack of Smarties for the kid's story...

I've been listening to a band called King's X a lot lately... if you haven't heard of them picture Metallica jamming with Dream Theater with the Beatles singing. Pretty rad. Lyrically they are interesting too... their early albums reflected a Christian worldview in a positive non-judgmental manner, but after their Lead singer Doug Pinnick revealed that he was a homosexual (and after the other two went through messy divorces, one of which involved the wife trying to assassinate him) the band began to write songs that showed lots of doubt and questioning.

It's a pretty unique story which yields some excellent music, though I am sad that Doug no longer claims to have any faith in Christ... also some of the lyrics on the band's more recent albums are very depressing to me as a Christian, in comparison to the older lyrics. However, Doug's doubts and questions are the doubts and questions that every Christian must face during evangelism, so I would suggest to any Christian to read his lyrics, ponder them, and then offer answers. This will help you grow. It should also be noted that Doug Pinnick is a close friend of Doug Van Pelt, editor of HM Magazine.

Anyway, you should all buy the album Faith Hope Love by King's X... available cheaply online or at any used cd store, it's one of the most truly edifying albums I own, one of my favourites. 100% better than any of that "Modern Worship" garbage that all sounds the same and makes the same shallow proclamations of devotion.

Here's hoping that you all have a powerful and challenging experience of worship today (and everyday).

I've been in tears
I've been the clown
I've had my doubts
what if I'm wrong
I've been in love
then maybe not
I crossed my heart
and then forgot

Everywhere I go I see you there

I read the story
that you died
I turned the page
and you were alive
with hope and love
but mostly faith
one day I'll see you
face to face

Everywhere I go I see you there

("Everywhere I Go" by King's X)

faith.hope.love

And now these three remain:

faith

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)

hope

And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. (Romans 5:5)

love

"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."(Matthew 22:36-40)

But the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:13)

poetics

Hello there.

This post is going to be an advertisement / where I'm at in terms of poetry. I guess I could have wrote this on my poetry blog, but I want to maintain the integrity of that blog as being strictly devoted to poetry itself and not discussions of poetry.

First of all, the lack of updates on Jealous : Kind are not because I am not writing... I am indeed writing... the reason is that I am in the process of writing a long-poem that will involve research / interviews / soul-searching, and it will most likely take the rest of the summer to write it. I don't want to give too much away, but what I will say is that it is nothing like anything I've written before and involves much more self-disclosure than I had originally intended or hoped for... hopefully it will be as challenging for you as it is for me.

When I am done this poem I will not post it on Jealous : Kind. Instead, I will combine it with a selection of my favourite older poems (including a few that are not on Jealous : Kind for various reasons) and offer it as a self-published low-budget book. I will only be making around 50 copies, some of which are already spoken for, and I will be offering the rest for sale. (Cheaply, mostly to cover production cost).

Now I have an assignment for you. I want you to pick some of the poems you want to see in it. Other than the new long poem, 2-3 previously unseen poems, and a couple highly-revised ones, there will be approximately 10 poems included from the Jealous : Kind site. So, pick your favourite poems and give me a list, and I will definitely include the top five choices (and pick the rest myself).

For those of you who don't like poetry: I am still alive, I am still working midnights, and I want to have coffee with you. E-mail me. That goes for all of you that like poetry too.

Also, please let me know if you would like to purchase a copy of my book, and I will add you to a list and make sure to set aside a copy when they are prepared... Most likely I will be making them in September or October. Thanks.

that is not a small number

uh..... oh

(speech degenerates into grunts)

ugh.. bleh......................

I HATE WORKING 8 DAYS IN A ROW.... a 64 hour work week is too many hours.

Fortunately I only have 16 of those hours left..... soon it will be joy and hallelujahs

I am finding myself drawn to Acts once again. Reading about missionaries is cool, you should do it.

okay now. bye.